Slingin' webs like spider-man
From that to this to whatever Just trying to keep it together But are these webs too tenuous, Is all this grasping disingenuous If I myself just want to be known? I hide my heart behind this mask Of "I'm fine, thanks," and "Yeah, I'm good," But I'm not as brave as I look Swinging around like this cracking jokes That are deflections and my reflections On these scattered windows show too clearly The refracted shape I'm in, webs spread thin And then comes the snap and I gasp And I'm squirming, falling, reeling With this onrush of feeling inadequate Lying here all hollowed out by self-doubt Unbreathing. But then hhhha! breath returns Like grace unseen and with this raw vibrancy My lungs rasp and shutter, breathing in And out again and in and I stutter out A laugh with myself and shake my head, "Oh kid, take a minute to rest, You aren't your best when you forget About just being here, a heart, dear- ly loved, and there are cracks to mend, sure, But don't borrow fear from tomorrow, Feel this sorrow and then move free Of the debris and go with purpose." Comments are closed.
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